Rhapsody: June 2006

Friday, June 30, 2006

yay. today is a happy day in school even though it's, as tuesdays and fridays usually are for me, tiring.

I'm hungry.

xD

Happy Happy Happy Happy! :D

Thursday, June 29, 2006

sometimes, apologies are not enough

Again, after quite a while, I feel unwelcomed in this place. Sometimes a refuge, a haven, and a sanctuary; other times a plain edifice, cold, troublesome, and a sole misery.

I am revealed in this page, thus, surprising those who know not of the stains that fills my cloth, but of the bright smiles, the cheery laughs, and the seemingly endless happy soul.

An optimist, though I may be, the strength to be one cannot last forever. Sadness and deppression is bound to overcome me, until such time I once again have the energy to project my happy, cheery self.

Have you not felt like that before? As if no amount of sunshine can make you happy, even though it usually does the trick?

I somehow pride myself for being appreciative of even the smallest things. And I do, I really do love it all. But you see... things are not always what they seem.

Sense is not a thing of importance to me right now, and follow if you must, but you're not asked to do so. Follow on your own free will as I am not promising any clarity from this point forward, as clarity is what I, myself, am lacking within.

Times before, I have felt the same unwelcomed feeling. It's a feeling that one would usually not want to have, and certainly not something one would enjoy.

A heavy, lonely heart is all that one has, and so, to seek refuge from the outside world is the only option.

To smile to the world and enjoy the simplest things is the only thing one can do, for not long after the sun departs the horizon, it will soon be within the horizon's reach again to allow the moon it's time in the sky, and one would again have this unwelcomed feeling, wishing nothing but to be away from it.

Everyone knows apathy hurts more than hate.

Then when the sun again, bids farewell to the horizon to give the world the sunshine it needs, one would again revert to the smiles and the laughter that one looks forward to as the moon shines with the stars.

One does not wish to be reminded of the troubles that await in the edifice called 'home', and would rather not have it talked about at any time, unless one broaches the subject. One does not want sympathy, nor pity.

Yes. The happy, cheerful outside world that one gets to enjoy is not a place for such miserarble things.

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If you don't want my apology, then don't take it. I've given it to you anyway, so I'm not taking it back. Give me apathy. Ignore me. Forget me. I did what I had to do.

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Seeking refuge and solace from my friends has always been a better option since it's seems it is they who know me best. Pretending to know me, are what people in this house are best at anyway.

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You know that heavy feeling in your chest and you have trouble breathing? And you feel as if you want to burst, but at the same time, you can't? That's exactly what I'm feeling right now.

And in a way, I have burst or I wouldn't be typing this.

Just know that queries regarding this matter will not be entertained by the writer unless she feels like so. As it is written above, the writer would rather not have her day spoiled by discussing things that shouldn't even be discussed. Any attempts to ask will be ignored by the writer and will not be acknowledged until such time the subject is changed.

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do not think that the writer is bitter about anything as that is not the case.

Monday, June 26, 2006

Conversations come and go. Especially the good ones.

I am the kind of person who, though talkative, requires input from the other end.

I'm not the type of person who likes talking about myself all the time, I rather like hearing about other people too! I like a well-rounded conversation where I talk and I listen too.

I get quite bored if it's always up to me to think of something - anything - to say. Specially so if whatever I say, I get the same reaction and whatnot.

I like talking with other people because I like learning. I love conversations because in a way, it's like learning. I learn new things not just about science, math, english etc., but also about life, daily stuff - ordinary stuff, stuff I can't learn in books.

But if the person on the other end would only look to me to keep a conversation going, then don't blame me if I get bored. I mean, it's not a conversation then is it? Because there can be no such thing as a one-sided conversation.

Besides, I can only think of so much topics especially when the other person would only say the same things again and again and again. It's tiring. Really.

Hah. I'm redudant aren't I? Ah well. The language of law permits me to do that, so what the heck? :)

Having said all that, I'd like to point out that I'm a person who likes variety. I can never stay liking something - anything - for too long. Just as well, my preference varies greatly. I'm not particularly choosy, it just depends on my mood.

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Oh yay. I finally burst.

Sunday, June 25, 2006

Group Work

Next time, I won't say anything even if I have an idea during group work. Because I know I'll end up doing all the work.

Sad thing is, last time, had I not spoken up, we would've spent days sitting in a circle staring holes right through each other. Ugh. That's how helpful my groupmates are.

Never. Again.

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I watched High School Musical a couple of hours ago.

I'll admit I like the song, however, the singing voice of Gabriella? ABSOLUTELY NOT. Same goes for the antagonist female character whose name I forgot.

I'd hardly think of describing Gabriella's voice as 'amazing' and 'beautiful'. O_O

Another thing, I rather think some of the choreography are over done. Like in the solo part of Gabriella, what was up with that?

The songs are okay, the plot was plain. All in all? Not a hit for me. 'Twas okay though...

It was pretty shallow for me, I guess. *rolls eyes*

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already, tinatamad na ko pumasok. hayyyy.

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

Ich bin siebenshen jahre alt

I am 17 years old.

yay. :p thanks to all who greeted me yesterday and even today! ^_^

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Got to study german. got to study german.

Monday, June 19, 2006

Birthday

Guess whose birthday it is we're celebrating tomorrow? ^.^

Yay.

off to sleep. :)

*hugs to those who remembered before seeing this post*

luv yah! ^^,

Sunday, June 18, 2006

Classes

Jitters plagued me as thursday morning began.

My first subject was Nat Sci 1 and already, I knew we wouldn't get along (no matter how much I like Physics). I was right.

Halfway through, I kept glancing at my watch, literally feeling as if we've been in class for about 3 hours. In reality? We've only been in it for 45 minutes.

My butt wanted freedom from the lousy cushion of a chair we sat on. @_@

Finally, I praised the heavens and almost sang an 'Alleluia' when the professor uttered the words I had been so eager to hear and so painfully waited for.

Next stop: German 10

I hardly knew what to expect. Last I heard, our professor was TBA, and so, I was taken by surprise at how contrasting my first and second professors were.

If it's because I'm more inclined to learn foreign languages than reviewing the fundamental principles and theories in physics and chemistry, I do not know. All I know is I'm bound for more fun in my second class for the day and would be looking forward to it during first class. xD (biased eh noh?)

With an early dismissal (another point for class2!) I hung around before finally going to lunch.

Here, I put out a warning to you all: if you're on a low budget and/or do not have the luxury of a loooooooong break, DO NOT EAT AT CHOCOLATE KISS. (Or whatever that restaurant is at the Bahay ng Alumni.)

Despite being the last(not counting the prerog guy who came in way after me) of the class to come in and having to sit on a monoblock chair, I found MS1 a very interesting class and already, I'm looking forward to my class this monday. xD

Day 2 first class is... for lack of better terms, interesting. It wasn't exciting, nor was it boring. The only thing I found I couldn't stand was our prof being a fan of Rachel Ann Go. @_@

"...Napakatalented talaga ni Rachel... Mas magaling pa nga siya kay Kyla..."

*shudder*

Is he kidding? Oh gosh, I HOPE so. (but he doesn't sound like he is. ~_~)

After the pretty interesting and, in some ways, disturbing class, Rejoice and I had our fair share of adventure. Including missing our stop and having to double back, walking through a road that's muddy and made us feel as if we're in an underdeveloped province, and getting fried under the blazing heat of the unforgiving noon sun.

I still can't believe I actually had the guts to go through and get social dancing for my pe! I feel sorry for Kuya James - my partner. T_T Oh man...

After a greasy (yuck!) lunch at Katag, I was on my own. I had an hour and a half to kill before my next and last class. And YES! I did it!! :D For the 2nd time I rode a jeep all on my own!!!! HAH! How's THAT for achievement? Weee. ^.^

Feeling quite happy with myself, I went all the way up the fifth floor and by chance, saw ate keith there who laater introduced me to another sophie - kuya eli. And then. I went to my class of doom.

*tun tun tun tun*

English 10

Course Description:
Reports, reaction papers, concept papers, position papers, documented essays, and research papers... the list foes on, and college life will demand at least one of each of these academic papers in the coourse of your stay in the university. Don't fret - English 10 will help you get through. English 10 involves the writing and critical reading of basic forms of academic discourse essential to university work. here you will focus on writing that is integrated with research - writing that is academic and scholarly. A semester's work in English 10 should equip you with the communication skills you will need to survive, even thrive, in the university. Take note: Because of this course's focus on academic style and on research skills, it assumes that your English proficiency level is at par with Standard Academic Discourse (This means that grammar should NOT be a problem. If it still is, you should drop this course immediately and take English 1 instead.).

Real smooth.

Already we have our first assignment. Which I should have finished by now but I'm too bummed to do it.

Hay...

Then I realized every tuesday and friday, I'll kill myself with boredom because I have to wait for my bro from 4 - 5:30. So much for being happy with my daily 2:30 dismissal sched way before enrollment. tsch.

-_-

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I'm still fond of effeminate guys. xD

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I have a feeling there's someone hiding from me. ...

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It's already 2:21 a.m. I have to sleep. buh-bye! ^_^

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

Freshmen Welcoming Assembly

The day started out fine. I got up on time (hindi ko pinahirapan sa paggising sakin sina lola gie) and I got there on time - 7:45 on the dot. (I almost forgot that traffic within the commonwealth - tandang sora intersection was normal on an ordinary school/work day)

As expected, the assembly started late. Or at least, later than the announced time it should. And the boring speeches we had to endure almost killed me. T_T Luckily, there were a lot of intervals where groups performed and either awed us, or made us laugh. Though... there was one group na na-freak out kame (ng mga kasama ko). But that's to be discussed in another post and another time. :)

The assembly ended sometime about... 11:30. Then we were grouped into our blocks, went to our respective colleges, had lunch, and went to our college assembly. The assembly was alright... Halfway through it came a black out. It was just our luck that we were sitting somewhere in the back so even straining our ears didn't help for us to hear what was happening in front. Finally, someone told us if we wanted to go out, we can. And we did.

So we just kind of hung out walking around and then finally deciding to go to Katag - cafeteria ng FC.

Heh. we guessed we missed our block picture... but Oh well. I think there are other events for us to have out pictures taken with our blockmates. xD

Well ayun... may mga na-meet ako na mga ibang tao who're really nice.

List of new people I've met during enrollment, FOP, and FWA:
Kim (who's actually a xientian... pero kakakilala lang din namin sa isa't isa)
Jona
Ana
Chucks and her friend... waaaa! nakalimutan ko ung name! T_T
Emille
Karen
Leda
Monelle(?)
Celine
Andrea
Ron
And actually... a lot of other faces na hindi ko pa alam ung name. T_T

Weee! ^.^ It may not be much... but at least it's a start! dibaaa? :)

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I'm anxious about my social dancing class. It just recently occured to me na magiging kawawa ung magiging kapartner ko. :(

Bakit ka nga ba ako naging interesado sa social dance??? waaaaa.

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First class tomorrow: 8:30 a.m. Nat Sci 1

Oh yeah.

How was YOUR first day? :)

Saturday, June 10, 2006

June 09, 2006 ASEAN Engineers conference

I spent the past week preparing for last night's event.

Heh. Yeah... I sang for a bunch of ASEAN Engineers. It's not that big of a deal since my dad's one of them, so it's not like I'm that known or something. :p

Monday and Wednesday, I spent the mornings with Grandma and Sir/Kuya Mark - my new pianist, and everyday over at grandma's to vocalize.

The morning started a bit frantically on my side, and so very on my grandma's side. I don't know... She seemed to be fretting over a lot of things... Ah well.

I went to her house at about quarter to 1 to vocalize before Kuya Mark was supposed to arrive at 2. We practiced a last minute addition to our repertoire and went on our way at 2:30.

We arrived at Manila Hotel at about... 3:30 where we were asked to seat somewhere behind while the ASEAN Engineers were having their meeting in front. Meat pies and coffee were given to us while we watched them discuss their business. Needless to say, it was rather boring.

And so after a while, we went on our way up to the hotel room. It was a bit of a pain since our room was located at the other end of the hall. Farthest from the elevators. hn.

Anyway, After getting there and resting a bit, I finally went and got dressed and dolled up for the performance. Then dad arrived and changed to his suit for a barong.

We went down had a run through with the doxology and then the program started, dad and I sang our bit, the program went on and I was bored to death. Until finally, it was time for my intermission number.

Then the program resumed, and I was again bored to death until I was asked for an encore. And we went and ate dinner with the rest of them. Heh.

Then after dinner Lola, kuya Mark and I went up to the room. I got dressed back to my previous clothes. The 3 of us hung out and chatted while waiting for dad.

Then after what seemed like forever, dad finally arrived and we went home.

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Been writing this post for hours already. There're just too many people to talk to and things to do! At this rate, it'll take a miracle for me just to finish this tonight.
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For some reason I just need to get this out:

Gays are the BOMB. *squee*

I'd love to have nice gay friends. Anyone out there interested? xD Friends lang, don't worry. xD
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Start na ng pasukan sa tuesday!!!!!!!!
OMGOMGOMGOMG. @_@

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I feel like breaking out into a song! ^.^

I feel pretty, Oh so pretty!
I feel pretty and and witty and GAY!
And I pity any girl who isn't me today.
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Thank you God for making last night a good night for me. I want to thank all the guests for their appreciation. :)

Have a nice day everyone. :)

Rhapsody