Rhapsody
Friday, April 28, 2006
I saw this um, bulletin board post on friendster where the person reading is asked to type his/her name on the keyboard using his/her elbows without clearing or editing the typos and without repeating it or practicing first. a lot of the names came out weird and funny. But some actually got it right even on their first try.
It actually took me three tries before I got it just right.
1. erdkiccka - first try
2. erkickma - second try
3. ericka - third try!! :D *finally* Ericka! :D
Haha. Try it, it's fun! :)
It actually took me three tries before I got it just right.
1. erdkiccka - first try
2. erkickma - second try
3. ericka - third try!! :D *finally* Ericka! :D
Haha. Try it, it's fun! :)
Thursday, April 27, 2006
my music preference; meme
I purchased the last CD of the essential Joshua Bell.And I'm very happy about it. I'm currently listening to it right now. Although, the CD has none of the tracks I actually want to hear from here, I'm nonetheless very, very happy that I bought it.
Listening to music like this always soothes me and makes me feel... I don't know, me.
This kind of music, I appreciate because it's true to it's classification - "Classic". Which means, it can withstand the test of time. It was and still is appreciated.
It's something which, when listened to, can evoke emotions and imaginations within one's self, which is something I rarely find in most contemporary music. I mean, sure. Contemporary music can do that too, but it's because they use words. Without out words, the melodies of most contemporary music sounds pretty much the same.
Note that I say most. Because, even if not many know it, I'm still a fan of contemporary music. Of course, I'm an average teenager, and songs which can express me like some of the contemporary music does, I pretty much adore.
It's just that, classical music, especially the instrumental, chamber and orchestra music, are music which, to me, can best express and best be expressed.
One track can go from sad to happy to angry to lonely to frightening and back to happy again. One of which is what I like most about music. The contrast.
I think it's funny that ever since I was a little kid, I have been attached to classical music.
Back then, when in the car and my brother's going from station to station to look for a good tune, whenever I hear the strings and all the other instruments, I'll immediately say "Yun!!" and then cry when kuya continue to flip through the stations. I'll insist that he tune it back to the classical station and persist until I grow tired, accepting the fact that I'm the only one who appreciates classical music.
Come to think of it, I thought myself weird for liking it and preferring it. But as I grew up, I eventually just said that it was no big deal. I have my own taste, they have theirs. and in my opinion, my taste is better than everyone else's. xD
Of course, I understood then that everyone has his own preference. And I understand that even now perfectly.
I just can't help but hate it when people generalize my preference. I mean, yes, I prefer classical music and I sing it, but that doesn't mean I know nothing of the contemporary music! I share the same liking for contemporary music with other people who knows naught about classical music.
And just because I prefer it, doesn't mean I always listen to it. I mean, I listen to it quite often but I listen to modern music more.
Although, a lot of times, I wish for people who're familiar with the music I prefer. I know so few that I grow quite fond of them easily. Well... most of them anyway.
I have a confession though...
One reason why I grow so rather attached to classical music (preferably chamber and orchestra), is because when I listen to it, it reminds me my dreams. Not just that, but this vision which I so clearly see that when I see it, when I imagine it, I just know someday it'll happen. You know that tingly, happy feeling, and you feel it inside, you feel it in your heart and you just...know.
Hahaha. I'm not making any sense am I? ^_^;
Well, that's pretty much how I feel towards classical music. I would soooo like it if and when I meet people who are fond of the same genre of music but at the same time, versatile in their taste. :)
It's already 12:42 in my clock and I feel like I've written a novel. But if you read as much as until this part, kudos to you. :) I love you! It shows that you value what I've got to say (unlike some people I know...).
Gute nacht, sweet dreams and take care! ^_^
♥♥♥
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7. iiyak ka kapag nawala...?> ang saya sa mundo
8. masarap mabuhay kapag...?> Masaya ako at masaya rin ang mga nasa paligid ko
9. madalas kaming magaway ng kapatid ko kc...?> hindi kame nagkakaintindihan.
10. gusto kong magpunta sa...?> america kung nasaan ang nanay ko para magshopping kame. xD
11. hindi masaya ang inuman kapag wlang...?> iinumin. (na tubig. xD)
12. masarap maging lalake kc...?> well, mas masarap maging babae.
13. umiinom ako ng beer kc...?> pag ino-offer sa akin ng magulang ko o pagmay social drinking. pero hindi yun beer. wine yun.
14. sinabi mo sa isang tao na may feelings ka sakanya kc...?> mas maganda maging honest. at akala ko kasi never ko na cya makakausap or makikita ulit.
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19. malungkot ang buhay kapag...?> walang kumakausap sayo at walang nagaalala para sayo.
20. sinasagutan ko to dahil?> di ako makatulog.
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
Today: Filinvest, Tomorrow: Baguio!!!
Woohoo!We're off to Baguio in... 5 and a half hours!
Er... well, I'm not really excited about the prospect of going to Baguio... It's the idea that I'm going outside, at last.
That means, I won't be going online for two days. :) We'll be back by thursday. :) Yep.
Anyway, my cousin, Jazle, has been staying here since Sunday. :) Wala lang.
Yesterday, we went to Nail Treats and treated ourself to a handspa. It felt very good and relaxing, we loved it there!
We simply have to go back!
It's not that expensive too... Well, for me. Di naman kasi ako marunong sa prices eh... anyway... wala lang. :p Mabait din sila. :D
I'll be sure to go back there. :D Anyone care to accompany me? ;)
Good morning everyone!!
Saturday, April 22, 2006
Hate? Love?
I love a lot of things. Yet, I don't like a lot of things either.Ayoko sa taong gumagawa ng mga "magagandang" bagay, just so ma-maintain ang so-called "good image" niya.
It's frustrating how people can think of this person as "the ultimate ideal person" when he/she really is not.
When he/she only cares too much about his/her "good-girl image".
You know what's even more frustrating? The fact that a lot of people fell for it.
You don't know how much I want to reveal here, but it's not like it's gonna do anybody any good.
If you've got questions, expect them unanswered.
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Ah well. Buti na lang pag college, I've got nothing to do with him/her na. :)
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If you know who I'm talking about, please just keep quiet about it okay? And sorry if I sound too mean or something. I was just too suddenly irritated when I thought of him/her that I can't help but vent here.
Anyway, I gotta go call mom. :)
See y'all. ^_^
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Btw, I've got a new watch and a new wallet! I love my mom! ♥♥♥
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Thursday, April 20, 2006
none-lackadaisical
Today started off with me feeling a bit sick. It continued on until I arrived at the music room (more than a little bit late, I must add).I didn't mean for anyone to notice, but it seems, it was quite apparent, for when I arrived, they immediately asked if I wasn't feeling well.
And to quote JP, "Kitang-kita sa mukha".
I wasn't aware that my face clearly showed it.
So goes the question about my being that transparent.
Is being transparent a bad thing?
I realize that it's kind of a stupid question. I mean, being transparent can't be a bad thing, can it?
-_-;;
Although... I'm not implying, in any way, that I'm transparent to the point that there's nothing about me that no one knows. Of course! I mean, where would the mystery be had I let people know absolutely everything and anything about me?
:p
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I'm seriously bored in this house.
Which is why I can understand why Lola Gie acts the way she does.
I'd have gone ballistic if I were the one stuck in this house for more than 3 years with barely anything to do except think about what to cook and worry about the servants.
I try my best to keep her company, but it's just not working out. I mean, she has her own interests and I have mine.
*sigh*
I wish we can have an outing together.
Anyway. it's 1:50 am. I gotta sleep. goodmorning everyone.
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Okay, I lied. it's already 2:30a.m. and I'm not asleep.
I suddenly felt awake.
And so I'll type whatever comes to my mind. :)
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Italian.
Yeah. That's the way to go. ♥
My ideal guy would be Italian. xD For some reason... I'm rather attached to them (and Europe, for that matter).
*sigh*
*dreamy eyes*
WOAH. Okay, hold on a minute.
I'm sorry, that was mush wasn't it?
Geez. I let my mind go for a couple of minutes and already, it's gone off to lala-land.
Do I need to have my brains knocked or something?
Ah who cares? If this is torture to you, then it's your problem. *cue evil laugh*
...
I'm suddenly not too sure that I do feel awake. @.@
darn.
Monday, April 17, 2006
Meme
YES / NOYOU ARE NOT ALLOWED TO EXPLAIN.
1. Taken a picture with someone else? yes
2. Painted your room? yes
3. Painted a car? no
4. Driven a car? yes
5. Danced in front of your mirror..? yes
6. Have a crush? yes
7. Been sad? yes
8. Have a friend? yes
9. Gotten in a car with people you just met? yes
10. Been in a fist fight? no
11. Been happy? yes
12. Had feelings for someone who didn'thave them back? yes
13. Been arrested? no
14. Made out with a stranger? n0
15. Met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere? yes
16. Left your house without telling yourparents? yes
17. Had a crush on your neighbor? yes
18. Skipped school to do something more fun? yes!
19. Slept in a bed with a member of thesame sex? yes
20. Seen someone die? no
21. Been on a plane? yes
22. Kissed sumone (not a parentor "friend")? yes(cheeks)
23. Slept in until 3pm? yes
24. Love someone or miss someone rightnow? yes
25. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? yes
26. Made a snow angel? no
27. Made sumone happy? yes
28. Cheated while playing a game? yes
29. Been lonely? yes
30. Fallen asleep at work/school? yes
31. Been to a party? yes
32. Felt an earthquake? no
33. Touched a snake? yes
34. Ran as fast as u can? yes
36. Been heartbroken? no
37.Been in a car accident? no
38. Hated your parents? yes
39. Witnessed a crime? no
40. sweet danced? yes
41. Been lost? yes
42. Been to the opposite side of the country? yes
43. Been lonely? yes
44. Cried yourself to sleep? yes
46. Sang karaoke? yes
47. Done something you told yourself youwouldn't? yes
48. Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? yes
49. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? no
50. kissed in the rain? no
51. Sang in the shower? yes
52. Played football? no
53. Had a dream that you marriedsomeone? no
54. Glued your hand to something? no
55. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? no
56. Ever gone to school partially naked? no
57. Been a leader? yes
58. Sat on a roof top? no
59. Didn't take a shower for a week? no
60. Ever too scared to watch scary movies alone? yes
61. Played chicken? yes
62. Been pushed into a pool with all yourclothes on? no
64. Broken a bone? no
65. Been easily amused? yes
67. smiled at someone? yes
68. Cheated on a test? yes.(who doesn't?)
69. Forgotten someone's name? yes
70. Slept naked? no
71. Been in a pool? yes
73. Been in a classroom? yes
74. Played badminton? yes
75. Gone to a late night movie? yes
76. Made love to anything not human? NO!
77. Failed a class? yes(shame)
78. Love sumone? yes
79. Played an instrument for more than10 hours? no
80. Loved someone so much you'd doanything to get them back? no
81. Easily fall for sumone? not really.
82. Thrown strange objects? no
83. Felt like killing someone? yes
84. Felt like running away? yes
85. Ran away? no
86. Did drugs? no.
87. Been in a party? yes
89. Made a parent cry? yes
90. Cried over someone? yes
91. Smoke more than 10 times in oneday? no.
92. Dated someone more than once? no
93. Had/Have a dog? yes
95. Own an instrument? yes
96. Are you in a band? no
97. Drank 25 sodas in a day? no
98. Broken a CD? no
99. Been in a beach? yes
100. Had feelings for sumone? yes. HAD. :)
Bored yet again...
I'm currently eating pancit canton which was prepared by manang.Exciting no?
-_-;;
I'm seriously getting bored here. There's nothing to watch, there's nothing to do, and it's so darn HOT! T_T
I haven't been getting emails from my friends which leads me to wondering if my mails were sent. I checked at the sent messages and they were. So I guess they're just really busy. Completely the opposite of moi. *sigh*
Although... I did find something interesting.
Someone tagged on my board. Kevin. He wants to exchange links.
Of course, being me, I checked out his blog first. See who he is and whatever.
So, yeah, I browsed through his blog, only to come upon a picture of their Glee Club in - get this - NAMCYA!
It's rare that I find random people who get to be in NAMCYA, so yeah, I was the slightest bit intersted.
I wonder what place they got...
I remember my NAMCYA days, which lasted for about a month and a half.
Funny... I kind of miss those days... :p
I still can't believe I got to the grandfinals. Haha. I wasn't expecting it and it felt great. I felt like I was something, you know what I mean? Haha...
Well, I hope that wasn't the last time I'll be singing on stage in front of everyone. :)
Wala lang...
I'm bored ulit. hayyy
I'm here at my bro's room. He's playing ps2. Nagpapalevel-up cya eh... and it gets boring after a while.
Oh well... at least I've got Gakuen Alice and Emma to look forward to later. :p I love mondays. Hahaha. That's saying something because ever since I went to Kisay, I hated mondays.
What? I needed to be at school at 6:45! That's so darn early. Wouldn't you be grouchy too?
-_-
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Bro asked me if I didn't know how to touch type. Well, I do since that's exactly what I'm doing now. :)
That fact that I started using the computer when I was onga 7 helps a lot, I guess. Hahaha.
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Joan told us that batch 06 ng Pisay aren't allowed to go out of the country without special permission from one of their faculty. Ms. Yazon(sp?) I think.
I don't understand why they have to hold the whole batch. I mean, don't they have the 10 suspects already? They can always ask for the name of student who's going out of the country so if anything should happen they can still keep track of the student.
Kulang na lang they let the whole world know fo the incident eh. -_-
Grabe naman cya... He's done a lot more than get "revenge".
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Anyway. Hay...balikulit sa dati. Bored. -_-
Comment naman kayo o! :)
Sunday, April 16, 2006
Happy Easter
Happy Easter everybody. :)---
Today, I got up earlier than usual (usual for summer, that is).
We went to a kid's birthday party at KFC. Nothing much to say except the food was good. xD The serving size was a lot more than expected. Needless to say, I was full and content all the way home (even 'till dinner!).
Earlier, I was flippin' through the channels when I caught one of Mtv's shows - Made.
It's the first time I watched that show.
Anyway, the episode was about this really big guy who wanted to be "Made" because, as he said, he was always thought of as the big guy, everyone's friend, funny, but nothing more.
He wanted to get the "chicks" and loose weight at the same time.
According to the him, he has tried a lot, if not everything, but none worked.
Anyway, of course, the show ended up with him loosing 30 pounds in a month, he got his girl (well... technically not yet) but yeah, it was a pretty good ending. To sum it up, he indeed, got Made.
So... Why did I talk about it? Ah well... it made me wonder if I'd ever get to a point where I'd be so desperate and hopeless that I still have to have a show like that change me. Well... I hope not. So yeah... I'm serious about it this time (I hope).
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On another note, can anyone tell me how I can have a playlist insteead of just one song looping over and over?
I'll appreciate it a lot thanks. :)
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Kinakabahan ako ulit sa pre-enlistment ko...
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I'm 99.9% sure na hindi ako papayagan sa outing this coming April 20. Hay... Fleming, have fun ah! :D Labyu all!!
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I'm currently chatting with Leslie. La lang. naeexcite na naman ako sa college. But I'm thinking na baka pag masyado ako naexcite, ma-disappoint lang ako...
I mean... I promised myself I'll focus on my studies, yet I'm afraid that I might give in na lang palagi.
Tapos... natatakot din ako siguro dahil feel ko maraming times na I'll feel alone. Although, I'm not against that. I mean, gusto ko rin naman yung magisa ako... pero sana not all the time. Hahaha.
Anyway, marami naman tao around. :) Even if UP's a big place, I'm sure I'll see lots of people around.
Sabi ni Ate Kit, di ko rin daw matatagalan yung libraries dun eh... pero... ewan, siguro nga oo, bubt then again kasi there're lots of things I want to read up on. :) And now that I have access to different libraries and a lot of books, who knows? :p
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Just stopped talking to Leslie - it's currently 1:20 a.m. :) I let her off to get her beautysleep.
Which I'm supposed to do in a little while din. xD haha. don't worry leslie, I will. ^_^
Good night everyone! :D
Oops... I mean, Good morning! or... Guten morgen!! :D
Auf wiedersehen! ^^,
Friday, April 14, 2006
Boredom
Hah. Laging nagkakaron ng time pag summer na I get bored. As in sobrang bored. ~_~Hayyy. Today is April 14, 2006, Good Friday, Mj's 16th birthday, and the day when I get to stay at home, in my room, and stare at this stupid screen.
T_T
So what else can I do but rant and ramble here? There's nothing better to do anyway.
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Last night, I was in bed and ... wala lang. nagmumuni-muni.
Maybe it was all this mushiness that got me wondering:
There are two guys, A and B. and then there's you.
A and B both like you.
A asks you out. You went and had fun. He asked you out again. You went and had fun again.
Then B asks you out.
I was wondering if it's okay to go out with him after you've gone out with A twice (or even pag once lang). I mean, it's not like A and you are an item already... right? You were just dating.
But then, naisip ko... wouldn't it be rude or something? Pero kasi... yun nga. It's not like you two are steady already. Right?
Can someone clear me up on this please?
Haha. It's obvious that I don't know much about these things. Wala lang. Just one of my daily musings. :)
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Last wednesday, nagpunta kame ni rejoice sa UP.
When we got to Palma Hall (or AS, as it's commonly known), di na namin alam kung san kame pupunta. We went to the front (yung may mahaba and wide na stairs). Pagsilip namin dun, there was nothing but a bunch of guys sitting on the stairs. It seemed the place was deserted save for a few students.
Immediately, rej and I turned back. Hahaha. For some reason, natakot kame bigla dun sa bunch of guys na nakaupo dun. Kasi they noticed us tapos feel ko napatigil ang kanilang usapan nung nagturn up kame.
Now, it's not that I mean to say na they took interest on us, it's just that I guess they were surprised to see two girls, who're obviously lost, loiter around. Needless to say, they scared us. Hahaha.
We asked some people who appeared approachable only to be taken aback by their lack of hospitality towards us. They seemed to give us a look which said "What, are you stupid? It's just over their idiots." T_T
We walked ahead finally arriving at the CAL. We asked the guards there and even they couldn't seem to find the patience with us. T_T Parang ang sasama ng mga tao dun. huhuhuhu.
Still, I can't wait till tuesday para makuha na namin yung course outline namin.
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Sayang. The one and only class na pwede namin i-take ni ate kit, is yung class kung san ayaw niya yung prof.
I wonder what's wrong with Prof. Roldan...? Sabi niya ayaw daw niya masingko.
kinakabahan tuloy ako. I totally suck at writing formal essays. Oh well. Please Lord, paki-guide po ako.
Rejoice and I have 3 classes together.
She was worried I might feel ... rather strangled about it. Pero hindi naman. :) Honestly.
I was actually worried kasi the other day, I couldn't find anyone who has any class the same as mine. I felt so alone yet thrilled. haha. Pero ayan na si Rejoice. :DThanks joicee!! mwah!
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Belated Happy birthday to Jean and a happy 16th birthday to Mj today!! :) Love you guys! ^^,
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I was going through my phone's inbox. ang daming messages ni ma'am erp. Somehow nammiss ko cya. Hahaha. I hope she's doing well sa Taiwan. :)
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Does anyone know of The Gospel of Judas?
(more on that next time)
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
Eng 10; ersatz
I'm required to take only one major this sem. And that's English 10.Of all the majors, I just had to have this one. T_T
I was told that English 10 is all about writing papers, papers, and more papers. It's too bad that I completely such at writing.
Writing's one of my major weaknesses. (I'm starting to wonder if I even have any strong points. ~_~) Especially writing papers for class. Sure, I can do informal essays but that's it. Nothing more can be expected from me.
I mean, my grammar sucks (well... not totally but I think it's not good enough), My vocablary's too small, I'm not creative enough, I fail to think outside the box, I'm ignorant. All major no-no's when you want to write stuff. Add the fact that I'm no good with words, and explaining things, plus I tend to use inappropriate terms without knowing it.
I swear. Whatever happens, I'll make sure my grade exceeds the required 2.00 to be able to shift to other courses.
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Ersatz.
Here I go again.
I really have issues with people insisting that I come from a rich family.
Honestly. THAT IS NOT THE CASE PEOPLE!
But that is not what I want to talk about here.
Ms. Hilario has never been my favourite teacher. Though I think she's nice in her own way, she's just well... done some things which annoyed people. Sometimes, she's unreasonable. Too strict for her own good.
Having said that, I always tried to stay away from her, and sometimes even feel that I hate her.
But I can't help but be touched at what she said about me.
Feng and I were chatting when she mentioned about how Ms. Hilario hated (let's change the name, shall we?) Jade's guts. How Ms. Hilario thought that Jade is nothing but a pretentious, social climber.
Feng said that Ms. Hilario was (or is) often annoyed by Jade's attempts to make herself seem like a classy rich kid.
With her coniotic way of speaking, Jade would brag about how she spends time every week at Starbucks, thinking that it makes her seem like a sophisticated person. Aside from that, Jade would often be seen flaunting her accessories and "branded" clothes.
I won't hide the fact that I, myself, am irked by what Jade does. I never liked people who thinks they're above everyone else specially because she thinks she acts and has things that "show off" her financial status.
I think it's pathetic.
But anyway, that got me thinking.
Am I like Jade?
Do I, unnecessarily flaunt my accessories, brag about where I hang out, and show off the things I have? I realize that I do speak in a somewhat coniotic way, but I swear! It's just out of habit. It's easier to talk that way for me.
This is where Ms. Hilario's comment comes in.
According to Feng, Ma'am Hilario said, "Akala mo naman kung sinong rich girl yang si Jade. Kung gusto niyo ng totoong rich girl, si Ericka Nera yun. Hindi lang niya pinapakita at pinagmamayabang." (paraphrased)
In all honesty, I was touched by what she said. Though I, myself, know not how came to think of that, I'm just glad when I hear of someone thinking good things about me.
It baffles me though. If I don't show that I'm rich, if I don't look rich, then why on earth do people STILL think I come from a rich family??
Hayy... there are some things which cannot be readily answered.
For the mean time, I hope this whole idea of my family being rich will eventually wear off. We're just practical people, after all. :)
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Let's all dream, and dream big. :p
Thanks for reading and comments will be greatly appreciated. ^^,
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So much for writing. hayy.. I really do suck. ~_~
Monday, April 10, 2006
Unprouctive day
oh yay. I've had a very unproductive day today.my big bro and i have been playing pusoy dos for over 3 hours now. hahaha.
wala lang.
tomorrow may himig practice ulit. san kaya? sa school? I'll be sure to wake up early for it.
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lagi ako niloloko ni kuya!!!! ang baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad. T_T
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hay. it's past 1:00 na!
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:p nagiging mushy ako. di ko alam kung bakit. hahahaha.
natutuwa ako sa mga pinanood namin ni kuya. galing sa youtube.com la lang. :D
excited ako magcollege!!!
ang daming plano sa susunod na week! :p
sana matuloy lahat!!!!
Unprouctive day
oh yay. I've had a very unproductive day today.my big bro and i have been playing pusoy dos for over 3 hours now. hahaha.
wala lang.
tomorrow may himig practice ulit. san kaya? sa school? I'll be sure to wake up early for it.
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lagi ako niloloko ni kuya!!!! ang baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad. T_T
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hay. it's past 1:00 na!
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:p nagiging mushy ako. di ko alam kung bakit. hahahaha.
natutuwa ako sa mga pinanood namin ni kuya. galing sa youtube.com la lang. :D
excited ako magcollege!!!
ang daming plano sa susunod na week! :p
sana matuloy lahat!!!!
Sunday, April 09, 2006
Pre-enlistment
I've already begun deciding which subjects I'll be taking.Ang sad lang kasi I can't take French and Italian yet. ang pwede lang ay German. Because of the stupid schedule. argh. but oh well. in demand daw sa call centers ang german-speaking dudes. :D so I guess it's not bad. :) It'll help me with my singing din. I'll be able to sing German songs! way cool! xD
I'm tired. Grabe. A lot of social mingling was done tonight. Sana they had fun. :) Sa mga pumunta... Sa mga di ko na-invite, I'm so sorry kasi limited lang ang pwede kong mainvite. Ang sad nga eh... tig10 lang naman kame ng sister ko.
Mga pumunta:
Mj
Anna
Ate Kit
Kuya Bry
Kuya Aron
Kuya Leonard
Jamie
Jean
Rejoice
Em-em
:) Thanks sa pagpunta. :)
Sayang si Armie... gabi na kasi nung papunta cya eh ang hirap ituro yung pagcommute papunta dito. nakakatakot. Oh well...
Well yun. :) Yet again, nakikigamit lang ako sa kuya ko. Ginagamit kasi ni Joan ung computer ko.
Speaking of computers, namimiss ko na mga tao online! Wala lang... I don't go online too often na kasi eh!
(Rejoice, paayos niyo na pc niyo ah? bakit kasi palaging nasisira! hehe)
Kina Ate kit, sana nakasama ako sa overnight... pero ganun talaga... marami pa namang araw! :D
:D:D:D
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I'm excited about college. I want to meet new people... I want to become independent. :D I want to feel grown-up. and I want an organizer/planner na hindi katulad nung nabibili sa National Bookstore!!
:p Wala lang...
Marami-rami rin pala ang may gustong mag-social dancing. xD
TANONG: sa FA28 ba, kelangan marunong ka rin magdrawing?
HALA... kakasabi lang ng kuya ko... Sa social dancing daw KELANGAN NAKA-DRESS?? waaaaaah.
Friday, April 07, 2006
:) Para sa inyo
I made this blogspot account just for you guys. :) Sabi niyo gusto niyo kasi may chatter box... haha. Well, it's a little bare for now kasi nakakatamad na magayos. Lalagyan ko rin toh ng music. Don't worry.Miss ko na kayo!
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When I blog, I blog honestly. As in, kung ano ang nakikita niyo ngayon, yun talaga ako. The only problem is, I'm not much of a writer. No coherency, no unity. Besides that, masyadong marami ang gusto kong sabihin. Hahaha. Kaya mahirap.
I tend to jump from one point to another. one topic to another. xD Kaya nawawalan ng point ang paglagay ng subject.
Isa pa, I'm not good with words. I end up using the wrong term, therefore causing a misunderstanding. But that's not a big issue here anyway, so no matter. :)
Right now, for my second post, I'll just write whatever comes to my mind. :)
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Up until now, di pa nagssink-in ung feeling ng pagiging graduate. I dunno... I'll feel flashes of sadness and nostalgia, but that's it.
I think it's because I felt too much during last year's grad.
Naalala ko nun, I felt sad and excited. I felt as if kasama ako sa mga grumaduate. Ewan ko... Siguro nga kaya parang wala lang sakin tong paggraduate kasi I felt it na last year. Weird ko noh? hahaha.
Mixed feelings of excitement and anxiety hit me when I think of the next two months.
How will I cope in college? Will I still be able to keep in touch with my friends? Will I make new friends? College's a BIG adventure for me.
Sabi ko I plan on dieting throughout summer. This brings me to the reasons why I don't really feel like dieting.
I feel fine with myself. Wala naman akong image issues. A lot of people tell me, kung magpapapayat ako, I'll be one eye-catcher. Marami daw magkakagusto sakin. But what the hell do I care about that??! I don't want guys to pursue me because they think I'm pretty or because "I caught their eyes". I want them to pursue me because they they think I have a great personality and they like my company.
But I think I really ought to do it for health reasons. Ayoko ma-highblood, maging diabetic and... yun. Basically that's it. Kaya I'll try my best to do it this summer. (Lord please help me)
Why...? I was getting along fine. I forgot about you, then suddenly you visit my thoughts for no apparent reason. I try to forget about you again, telling myself that it's only natural to think of someone I know every once in a while. You're not worth remembering. You're not worth anything I've got. So why? Why, after all this time, I think about you? I never ever want to see, talk, nor think of you again. Pero anong magagawa? Nanjan ka na eh. It only pisses me off to find out that you've changed into something even more appaling and disgusting than you were. Yun na nga yun eh. You were a jerk then... but I still held on. Now, I thought, na let go ko na. Ewan. I don't think I'm that good of a person to still be blind about all this. But for a long time, I made sure I kept the blindfold on. Tinaggal ko na. and yet... I still feel the same way. I'm hating you for it. I wish I could just erase you from my memory so I could never remember how I felt back then. How we were. I was naive. Nagiging senti na lang ako. Sa lahat pa ng kasesentihan ko, ikaw pa. Aba. Masaya ka.
If there's anything I'm afraid of... it's to get hurt. I hate getting hurt. I'm sure marami ring ganito... pero, yun talaga yung pinaka-ayoko. Tapos I don't like making mistakes. I guess you can say its somewhat a lighter version of being a perfectionist (hey, I'm NOT a perfectionist). It's just that, I think that if I make mistakes, I'll get hurt. you know... hay... yun. That's why I'm afraid of taking chances. But the ironic thing is, I like taking chances, and I love the thrill of not knowing what will happen. I love thrills. hahaha.
I love a lot of things. I love God. I love my friends. I love you!